Ever have one of those days where nothing goes as planned and you go to bed exhausted yet wondering what the hell you accomplished all day and questioning every aspect of your life?
Well, I'm having one of those YEARS. And that year started in October of 2018 when my husband was laid off from his job. He found a new one, but it took a few months, and didn't come in time to pay for Christmas. Or the mortgage, for that matter. We got by, as people do, but not without running up some debt.
And that was just the beginning.
Around that same time, my son started having some health issues. After countless doctor appointments and scans and tests, we're still trying to find out what's wrong with him. He's in a lot of pain, and so Mom here (that's me) has been driving him back and forth to all of these things, picking up his meds, making special trips to the grocery store and so on, and so on. He tries to keep a positive attitude, but it's hard. And, you know, there's all the mom feelings. When your kid is suffering, so are you.
Along with all of this, I offered to pick up a side job to help pay for the debt caused by mentioned layoff and son's medical bills. I had to do this because the writing gig barely makes enough to pay for itself. Unfortunately, being a full-time author is becoming less and less sustainable. And to be completely honest, there have been quite a few times recently I've thought of giving it up. I've gone back and forth about whether or not I should be open about this with you guys, but I think it's something you, as readers, need to know...
I love writing stories for the readers who love them, but due to things like book pirating and the "pay to play" motto sites like Facebook and Amazon are adopting, it's getting harder and harder to pay the bills doing the job I love. And harder and harder to find that mindset I need to be in to write. So, I'm taking a break from all of the noise of social media and going back to what I love to do most. Writing. Just writing. It's the only way I'm going to get my stories out there. Social media, besides being stressful, is a time suck. And it's been taking up way too much of my writing time.
On a happier note, we're building a new house! More on this in my next newsletter. But alas, that comes with its own set of time sucks. The planning, the packing, the selling of this house and moving into the new one...I'm tired just thinking about it. LOL
And in between ALL of this, I'm helping my mom with my sweet newborn little nephew. She's watching him for a few weeks, and I (because I have nothing else going on in my life) offered to help. LOL
Anyway, the reason for all of this blabbering is to tell you I am writing every moment I can find! And Lucian's book WILL be here soon! I promise. :) I'm still going for a mid-May release date, and fingers crossed, that will happen. However, I won't rush a book just to get it out there. If it comes down to it, I'll push the date back again. The next few months are going to be crazy busy for me.
Trust me, it'll be worth the wait.